31.5.17

lately, i kept changing my mind on where i want to go with my blog and social media accounts. i've been distancing myself from content creating because after everything i posted, i found myself over analysing it, constantly questioning what i'm doing and contemplating what i should be doing, which was pretty frustrating. as a result, i ended up deleting many posts, my instagram account and my tweets. over and over again. 

i felt uninspired, i lost my motivation and my passion for blogging because i thought that i had to portray myself in a certain way to create some sort of online presence, while at the same time preaching that we don't have to label ourselves and that it's okay to be different things at once, while saying that the beautiful thing about creativity is that it's not about following certain rules, it's about making your own. 

now i realise that i don't want to be seen as the writer, the poet, or even the blogger. i simply want to be seen as sara. there are so many aspects that make me who i am, some of which i am still discovering, and i want to be able to express myself in different ways again. i enjoy sharing my thoughts, what's on my mind and what i've been up to. after all that's what sara's chapters was meant to be all about in the first place, i just forgot about it for a while. 

i'm done over analysing. i'm done being a perfectionist. you're more than welcome to join me on my journey and to bear with me as i try to learn to take my own advice.

this time, i really want to do things my way. i thought that's what i was already doing, but i'm not too sure about it anymore. so here's to a new beginning.

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  1. I know the feeling too well with my many blogs during the past 2 years. I really hope you eventually get to where you want to be and create the things that makes you happy. Just remember to do it for yourself and nobody else.
    with love,
    ayele

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    1. thank you ayele, that's a great reminder and i couldn't agree more :) sometimes i just forget about it x

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  2. I love this blog post and I can relate to your situation - I have gone through so many different phases with my blog, started out as a beauty blogger, turned into a travel blogger and now I'm just doing whatever comes to my mind. I think the best you can do is be yourself and treat your blog as your creative corner in which you can express yourself and just basically do whatever you want to. Anyway, welcome back! :) xx

    113thingstosay.com

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    1. thank you mira! you're so right, i just want this blog to be a representation of who i am and i think that's what i'm finally going for now :) much love to you x

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  3. I feel you on this Sara. I always find myself going back and forth with being a blogger and what I want my content to be. A break is always necessary to help gain some form of clarity. Although I am happy with the state of my blog, there's always that voice in my head that says I'm not doing something right or that I should be doing something else. But I just have to remind myself that all I ever want to do was write, without any restrictions or limitations. My blog is nothing but my thoughts and I'm content with that (for now at least lol). I'm so happy to have you back Sara and I can't wait to see what you create <3

    Kathlyn | Kathlyn's Korner

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    1. it can be quite frustrating right? but yes, it definitely is, i think just reflecting on it for a bit helped me a lot :) same here, i'm done setting boundaries when it comes to my creative outlet. thank you for being such a sweet soul, your words mean a lot to me x

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  4. Looking forward to reading more of your content~ There's no need to be over-stressed about a hobby, just write whatever you feel like writing. :)

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    1. yess, that's so true. thanks for your support nana :) x

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  5. Changing your mind is never bad. means you get to experience more things You will find where you want this blog to go I promise!

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    1. haha short and sweet: Take your sweet time.

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    2. you're right, thank you so much vanessa :) x

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  6. You know this is exactly how I feel right now. I feel like I always tell you this but it is actually true!! I've not been proud of my content, I haven't even been writing that much nor reading any blog posts to be honest. Or whenever I do write/read something I question myself and wonder if what I've done is right, what people expect from me, if I am enough. Because compared to what I read from others it is absolute crap. I don't know what to do with the blog nor with my life and it's all been a mess and I guess I just need to gather my thoughts or something. Maybe I should write about more personal stuff on the blog I don't even know. Anyway I don't know why I'm talking about me, I just wanted to say that I get how you must've felt and I can't wait to see new posts from you, do whatever makes you happy and it'll be enough :)

    Anna x

    dropsofanna.blogspot.com

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    1. you can talk about yourself as much as i want to, i like comments like yours because hey make me feel less alone :) i really hope you'll get some clarity soon! you said it yourself in that last sentence, you should do whatever makes you happy. maybe it will take a while to figure out what that is exactly but i'm sure you'll figure it out. try not to be too hard on yourself and don't compare your work to what other people are doing. you are you not them, what you create is beautiful and unique :) x

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